Am I a doubter? If I am honest, yes, there are times I doubt. So did some of the 11 disciples. They all went on to serve Jesus in a mighty way. Thomas, while famous for being “a doubter” wasn’t the only one. John the Baptizer, the cousin of Jesus, had doubts.
Do I hold back? Of course I do. Some times I refuse to be clear about who Jesus is. Afterward, I kick myself. I am ashamed. Jesus uses it as a way for me to learn to be a better disciple. The power of the Holy Spirit always convicts me.
Will I worship Jesus? That becomes the real question. I get to choose. I will worship Jesus. He is the Son of God, sent to earth, born of a virgin, died for my sins, resurrected to an incorruptible body, and ascended to heaven to sit in authority next to God. Even with my doubts, I will worship Him!
Meanwhile, the eleven disciples were on their way to Galilee, headed for the mountain Jesus had set for their reunion. The moment they saw him they worshiped him. Some, though, held back, not sure about worship, about risking themselves totally.
Matthew 28:16-17
There is good news! Consider Thomas, the doubter. Thomas, after He saw the resurrected Jesus, said to him, “My Lord and my God!” Then Jesus told him, “Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.” Or, consider Peter. After walking on water with Jesus, he took his eyes off Jesus and began to sink. Jesus rescued him. Jesus said to him, “You of little faith, why did you doubt?” After they got back in the boat, those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”
Doubt leads to worship!
Matthew 11:2–3 (ESV) — 2 Now when John heard in prison about the deeds of the Messiah, he sent word by his disciples 3 and said to him, “Are you the one who is to come, or shall we look for another?”
John 20:25 (ESV) — 25 So the other disciples told him, “We have seen the Lord.” But he said to them, “Unless I see in his hands the mark of the nails, and place my finger into the mark of the nails, and place my hand into his side, I will never believe.”
Matthew 28:17 (ESV) — 17 And when they saw him they worshiped him, but some doubted.
Mark 16:11–14 (ESV) — 11 But when they heard that he was alive and had been seen by her, they would not believe it. 12 After these things he appeared in another form to two of them, as they were walking into the country. 13 And they went back and told the rest, but they did not believe them. 14 Afterward he appeared to the eleven themselves as they were reclining at table, and he rebuked them for their unbelief and hardness of heart, because they had not believed those who saw him after he had risen.
Luke 24:25 (ESV) — 25 And he said to them, “O foolish ones, and slow of heart to believe all that the prophets have spoken!
M. Wilson
Intentional Faith 